Dear Zindagi (Chapter 5)

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Sometimes in Life you feel lassitude surrounding your heart making it beat wildly and you start thinking irrationally for no good reason.

“Hey” Chirped Ciara excitedly.

“You seem to be happy today!” Her inner voice said placidly.

“Like you aren’t cognizant of the recent turn of events in my life.” Ciara said in an accusing tone.

“I know, but there is nothing to be excited about!” Inner voice said cautiously.

When we are too happy we usually shut everyone around us who are just trying to help us isn’t it true?

“What is with you” Ciara said this time with spitting pure anger and pouted like a little girl. She was baffled with the way her conscience was talking to her. Instead of beaming at her, her inner self is pretending like she is unaware of anything in her life!

“You need to understand the cruel play of this society which they are slowly trapping you in” tell her inner voice with a hint of warning.

“What do you mean?” Cia asked suddenly on full alert.

“Life is not all about earning money! It is much more than that, it is about earning respect, helping others who are in need, it is more about living happily. Instead of being a marionette be the sole driver of your steering wheel, don’t let anybody take that right from you!” tell her conscience weighing her every word.

“But this is all I ever wanted.” Said Cia slowly.

“Did you?” asked her inner voice questioned and she felt tongue-tied, she felt betrayed, she didn’t have anything to say back, she was embarrassed.

Her conscious once again won, leaving her with a bundle of thoughts gnawing her insides. She felt dejected but one thing she was sure of was her inner voice was right indeed, instead of being materialistic we should be more realistic and do things which gives all the pleasures of life.

To be Continued…

 

 

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Long Lost Met Again…

Sometimes it is okay to be a little selfish for your own self and for your own better future and if that involves leaving everything that you once loved more than anything then also it’s fine.

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It has been said that time is a big healer and with time your every wound heals sooner or later, but some wounds remain fresh in your heart and mind like they just happened a moment ago…

I was walking down that road all over again, the red bricks, gigantic trees , newly blooming flowers, everything looked exactly the same yet it all looked different like it’s for the first time I am visiting this place. That intoxicating scent of pure air was still there yet with time things changed.
The sky appeared to be crystal blue, the roads looked newly built, you can smell the charcoal from it. Birds were chirping, everything was exactly the same in my mind, even the memories were so fresh of you and I standing by the stairs. Your masculine hands encircling my waist, my back against your front, I am giggling over something you said a second ago. It looked all same, so real that I was afraid if I will trace my finger along your face, you will be there but no one was there. In these last six years everything has changed, people here look more sophisticated and neatly dressed. That slum where I had spent my twelve years has now taken a shape of a beautiful building.

“So you are finally here” Said a familiar voice and my whole body went stiff.

I turned around to look into those mesmerizing blue eyes, which were able to hypnotize me every time. When I looked at him I was awestruck by the change of his looks and it only exuded one thing that was money!

I was tongue-tied that very moment, all these years I never thought this place will change like this or particularly him. It’s like I am meeting a whole new person.

I remember when I first saw him. I was six years old then, I had a fight with my mother and in return she slapped me, I was sitting under the tree silently weeping over my cruel fate. Out of nowhere someone tapped me on my shoulder and when I refused to look, that person sat beside me.

“Why are you crying?” He asked softly but by his voice I could judge he was annoyed by my crying and this made angry.

“Please go, I don’t want to talk to anyone” I said calmly but he completely ignored my request and took my hands with which I was covering my face within his small hands.

Don’t be a baby, eat this. Whenever I cry, I eat this. Stop crying now, ” he said, putting an orange color lollipop for which I was crying. That is when I noticed him.

He was taller than me, but his face was small, his clothes were exactly like mine mismatched and at places patches covered the area which was torn off. We both looked emaciated, his hair were disheveled just like mine, but what drawn me towards him was eyes beautiful blue orbs. They are just so rare and the intensity his eyes behold was capable of intimidating anyone. In the beginning I was scared of him too, but as time passed we both became inseparable.

He was my best friend, but everything crumpled right in front of my knees when he said he love me. My priorities were different then. I wanted a better future for myself after all, I never wanted to spend my whole life-like my mother did. I wanted to get educated, but he wasn’t ready to let me go so I did the worst possible thing I could do to him, I insulted him in every possible way and left when all he wanted was me to be With him.

“You look good, ” he said, but with a smirk on his face devoid of any emotion.

“You have changed” I said completely ignoring his remark.

He was wearing a teal color turtle neck T-shirt which was highlighting his blue eyes paired it with Gray color shorts. He was wearing a black slippers, but his whole attire looked elegant. His hair looked short, neatly combed.

“With time people change, so have I, ” he said, looking straight into my eyes.

His words crushed My heart into a million of pieces, I know what I did to him was an arch-enemy would also not do but at that time I had no choice.

“I am sorry, ” I said softly, but didn’t dare to look into his eyes.

What I wanted to do was to run into his arms and hug him as tightly as it was possible for me but I know I have lost that right.

“Why are you here?” He asked me in a raised voice, gritting his teeth.

“For you, ” I said and moved towards him, but all my hopes were shattered when he took a step back.

I stop in between, My eyes full of tears, I was just about to run from there when in a blink of eyes, he with a jerk pulled me towards him and I straight landed in his arms.

“You are so irresponsible, if something would have happened to you I would never forgive myself ever, ” he said and engulfed me in His arms. His hands were on my back and my hands were in his hair.

The sensation of having his arms around me was divine. And knowing he still cares for me was even more heart wrenching.

“Please don’t let me go, ” I said and voice break at the end.

“Even if I want to, I can’t, ” he said, tightening his hands around my waist and I snuggled more into him.

For the past ten years I was waiting for this day to come and when it came everything changed. Not only this place has changed over, but this man whom I respect so much has also changed but in the best possible way…

 

 

Dear Zindagi (Chapter 3)

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“Why are you so upset today? As far as I remember you were squealing like a child in the morning!” asked Ciara’s inner voice when Ciara was pondering over things which her inner voice was aware of yet she wanted Ciara to say it herself.

“You know why I am sulking” said Ciara with a sad face.

“You know you cannot hold onto people forever no matter how hard you try you cannot do this” her conscience said after weighing her every word as the last thing she wanted to do was to upset her even more.

“Yeah I know but it’s just sometimes some people become such an important part of our lives that when they move on while we are right there where they left us, it hurts…” Ciara said with tears in her eyes.

“You know every stranger has a role to play in your life, they come, play their roles as efficaciously as it is possible for them and when the right time comes they leave you not because now they don’t need you anymore but because now even if they remain in your lives then also it will not make any difference. So learn to let things go.” Her conscience said something which we all should ponder over.

“You will never leave me will you?” Asked a suddenly alert Ciara as even the thought of not listening to her conscience is like living life without breathing.

“It will only happen when you will die, then I have to leave you otherwise you are stuck with me for lifetime” Her inner voice said proudly.

“I love you” Ciara said with a smile playing on her vibrant face.

“I know” Her conscience retorted back proudly and swaying her head she laughed and thought only one thing.

‘Life is beautiful when you give preference to yourself, It is even more amazing when you care for others but don’t forget one thing others are here to only play their roles but you will be there for yourself when no one will be there so love yourself unconditionally…’