Long Lost Met Again…

Sometimes it is okay to be a little selfish for your own self and for your own better future and if that involves leaving everything that you once loved more than anything then also it’s fine.

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It has been said that time is a big healer and with time your every wound heals sooner or later, but some wounds remain fresh in your heart and mind like they just happened a moment ago…

I was walking down that road all over again, the red bricks, gigantic trees , newly blooming flowers, everything looked exactly the same yet it all looked different like it’s for the first time I am visiting this place. That intoxicating scent of pure air was still there yet with time things changed.
The sky appeared to be crystal blue, the roads looked newly built, you can smell the charcoal from it. Birds were chirping, everything was exactly the same in my mind, even the memories were so fresh of you and I standing by the stairs. Your masculine hands encircling my waist, my back against your front, I am giggling over something you said a second ago. It looked all same, so real that I was afraid if I will trace my finger along your face, you will be there but no one was there. In these last six years everything has changed, people here look more sophisticated and neatly dressed. That slum where I had spent my twelve years has now taken a shape of a beautiful building.

“So you are finally here” Said a familiar voice and my whole body went stiff.

I turned around to look into those mesmerizing blue eyes, which were able to hypnotize me every time. When I looked at him I was awestruck by the change of his looks and it only exuded one thing that was money!

I was tongue-tied that very moment, all these years I never thought this place will change like this or particularly him. It’s like I am meeting a whole new person.

I remember when I first saw him. I was six years old then, I had a fight with my mother and in return she slapped me, I was sitting under the tree silently weeping over my cruel fate. Out of nowhere someone tapped me on my shoulder and when I refused to look, that person sat beside me.

“Why are you crying?” He asked softly but by his voice I could judge he was annoyed by my crying and this made angry.

“Please go, I don’t want to talk to anyone” I said calmly but he completely ignored my request and took my hands with which I was covering my face within his small hands.

Don’t be a baby, eat this. Whenever I cry, I eat this. Stop crying now, ” he said, putting an orange color lollipop for which I was crying. That is when I noticed him.

He was taller than me, but his face was small, his clothes were exactly like mine mismatched and at places patches covered the area which was torn off. We both looked emaciated, his hair were disheveled just like mine, but what drawn me towards him was eyes beautiful blue orbs. They are just so rare and the intensity his eyes behold was capable of intimidating anyone. In the beginning I was scared of him too, but as time passed we both became inseparable.

He was my best friend, but everything crumpled right in front of my knees when he said he love me. My priorities were different then. I wanted a better future for myself after all, I never wanted to spend my whole life-like my mother did. I wanted to get educated, but he wasn’t ready to let me go so I did the worst possible thing I could do to him, I insulted him in every possible way and left when all he wanted was me to be With him.

“You look good, ” he said, but with a smirk on his face devoid of any emotion.

“You have changed” I said completely ignoring his remark.

He was wearing a teal color turtle neck T-shirt which was highlighting his blue eyes paired it with Gray color shorts. He was wearing a black slippers, but his whole attire looked elegant. His hair looked short, neatly combed.

“With time people change, so have I, ” he said, looking straight into my eyes.

His words crushed My heart into a million of pieces, I know what I did to him was an arch-enemy would also not do but at that time I had no choice.

“I am sorry, ” I said softly, but didn’t dare to look into his eyes.

What I wanted to do was to run into his arms and hug him as tightly as it was possible for me but I know I have lost that right.

“Why are you here?” He asked me in a raised voice, gritting his teeth.

“For you, ” I said and moved towards him, but all my hopes were shattered when he took a step back.

I stop in between, My eyes full of tears, I was just about to run from there when in a blink of eyes, he with a jerk pulled me towards him and I straight landed in his arms.

“You are so irresponsible, if something would have happened to you I would never forgive myself ever, ” he said and engulfed me in His arms. His hands were on my back and my hands were in his hair.

The sensation of having his arms around me was divine. And knowing he still cares for me was even more heart wrenching.

“Please don’t let me go, ” I said and voice break at the end.

“Even if I want to, I can’t, ” he said, tightening his hands around my waist and I snuggled more into him.

For the past ten years I was waiting for this day to come and when it came everything changed. Not only this place has changed over, but this man whom I respect so much has also changed but in the best possible way…

 

 

Dear Zindagi (Chapter 2)

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” When I look at people now a days, I see only one thing in their eyes, lust for  more power. Now feelings don’t matter at all, every emotion is weighed, now people believe in materialistic things rather than the feelings.” Ciara said sadly when she reached her favorite spot, i.e in the back of her house is a beach which is not only beautiful but provide her serenity too.

“I know, but this is how life works. You cannot change these things, the only thing you can do is accept it as soon as it is possible for you ” said the voice which she has been craving for, her conscience.

“Is there any way I can escape all this? Like outer world I do understand but it hurts when people around me who are related to me behave like money is everything. I mean I know money is something with which you can buy everything” Ciara said keeping a hand under her chin, her brows furrowed. She looked deeply disturbed.

” You cannot buy everything, you can buy all the materialistic things but you can never buy love. Just accept this we all are selfish, and we do judge people with what they say. It is totally normal, we live in kalyug(age of downfall) don’t expect people to be selfless.” said her inner voice after weighing every word.

“I hate it when every time you turn out to be right!” She said with a smile which looked ostensible. Now that her inner voice has heard her worries she seemed to be calm.

“You know I am always right” said her conscience proudly which made her smile.

“Yeah Yeah” she said and walked towards her home with one hope that in the coming years maybe in her world she will make a difference.

She will not let people weigh her emotions, She will create her own world where only those people will be there who are with her because they want to be not because of any other selfish reason…

 

To Be Continued

 

 

You Promised…

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It is difficult for me to let you go,

I am afraid of what will happen when you are not around anymore,

You promised you will never leave me ever,

Yet you ended up breaking every single fucking promise you made,

Why you did this to me?

Why can’t I hold onto you forever?

Why suddenly things changed between us?

Don’t go please I wanted to say,

But you were gone already so far away from me,

That now you are a star, twinkling without any care,

Everyday you shine so brightly,

Everyday I wipe my unshed tears,

Reminiscing the days when we were together,

I never said out loud but now I want to confess this to you,

You were my life,

You made a place in my heart which nobody can replace ever…

Trapped #short story

Story of a women trapped in bias of society and male chauvinism.

Trapped #short story

Women have power of saraswati, durga and laxmi if they want they can make their house heaven lest they can even make it hell… yet we are accused of trapping men in the nutshell. Don’t you think it’s the other way round?

“You are a Women, you will never understand all this and I am a man a successful person because of whom you exist! This is how the society works my dear, so from the next time you better think twice before you ask” he said with so much venom that her whole body shuddered.

“You know our financial plight,  I just want to help you. I am also as qualified as you are so if I want to do job and help my family out it isn’t a crime right? ” she dared to say that although from inside she was shaking terribly of the repercussion. She is not bold infact she is shy but it is said sometimes even the most fragile person has to become strong for the betterment of the family.

“Hahahaa, if ever this thing cross your mind again, then don’t blame of what happens afterthat!” With this he was gone.

This was a routine in their house but what he did was correct? Before marriage he promised to take care of her and give her the freedom of taking her own decisions but after marriage everything changed… His dreams became a part of her dreams and slowly his every dream dominated her’s. Women usually lost their identity to build somebody else’s career, they go through every change so that they can build a secure future for her loved ones… This is what women are they are shy from outside but are capable of making house a HOME….

 

Dear Zindagi (Chapter 1)

Voicing your own thoughts to your own conscious will do wonders, just try it once..

“Life is so unfair sometimes you know” Ciara said to her conscience the moment she reached that one place where she can voice out all her worries.

“It never promised to be fair” retorted her inner voice.

“True but sometimes why things take drastic changes? Why can’t everything be as we want it to be” Ciara asked, her brows furrowed.

“If everything goes as we planned then what will be the fun of living life? At every juncture we will know what is store for us! There will be no mystery, no fun, no excitement. It will be like an open book” said her conscience.

“Yeah you are right, I don’t know why I even asked you all this” Ciara said realizing how stupid her questions were.

“Don’t insult yourself ever! If you will insult yourself then who will respect you and your questions weren’t stupid, you just voiced out what you wanted to which many people out there don’t have guts to” said her inner voice in a authoritative manner making her shiver.

“I am always here for you, even if the whole world is against you, I will still be there to solve all your problems. What you have to do is talk to me and answers will come from within you” said her conscience before she could say anything and then like a stroke of wind she was gone, leaving Ciara all alone yet she knew one thing she is not alone, may be physically she is but not mentally or emotionally.

With this thought she made her way towards her home but with a smile on her face…

To Be Continued…

 

One Day…

Dream that we all want to convert into reality…

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One Day…

One day I will be gone,
You will long for me,
You will miss me,
You will feel sorry for all the things that you had put me through,
But I will be gone out of your reach,
You will never be able to find me,
I will be happy in my la la land,
And you will be weeping silently,
Thinking about me,

My smile will bring tears in your eyes,
I will be leading a wonderful life all alone where I will be loved,
Where I can lead a peaceful life with my subconscious…..
One day!